Horray for spare time.

Sorry for such a long hiatus. It's been over a month. Why? School and damn work, that's why. If you've been keeping up, I going to school to be an Electrical Engineer a Computer Science Engineer. (I recently decided to change majors.) So, between calculating the curvature of a surface in 3-space and creating power points for conflict management, I play games in my spare time. It's my "me time". Plus, when I would post weekly, it was at work when I had nothing better to do with my time.

As per the last couple updates, my position at work came into question as to whether or not it was actually needed. It wasn't, but because I'm so valuable, they didn't want to fire me and so, opted to transfer me to a different area. That area has no eff'n wi-fi and it's driving me crazy. I have an iPhone 3G so maybe I'll see if I can update from there. However, the office is like a war bunker and if I stand just so and position my hand just right, I can get a couple bars on the "E" network. Good times.

Note:* I found out I actually have an audience outside my usual group of close friends who care enough to check the blog out. Comments are nice. Thanks for reading Anonymous', now, I do it for you, and the $50-every-10-years-for-ad-space-from-Google.

Note to self: get more anonymous'es.

False Starts

I have no time.  People don't understand this.  And perhaps, I don't understand this.  And perhaps, I just need to re-evaluate what time I do have and structure it accordingly.  I'm getting off track.

It would appear I have a little problem: I can't finish anything I start.  I have 3 unfinished books and I want to start about 3 more.  I have 4 unfinished video games, and I'm looking for another one to start.   What is my deal?  It worries me, how I can start so many things, but never finish?  I reflect on my whole life in this manner and wonder how long this has actually been going on?

When I was young, I skateboarded, as did almost everyone.  But, while m y friends became better, I leveled off.  I practiced just as much and just as long as the rest, but never kept up to their level.  Feeling the essence of failure, I faded out of it.

I attempted the bass guitar in my brother's band.  But, that failed because I didn't have "the ear" for music.  I couldn't wrap my head around it.  If I were shown exactly where to put my fingers and when, I did okay, but I lacked any finesse.  I didn't have the "soul" of music in me.

I'm not going to bore you with the details of my other failures but I think it's due to my Adult A.D.D.  It's not clinically diagnosed and I should probably go in for a check up, you know, to check my mental capacity.  That would be interesting.  I wonder if I am, "crazy" or if everyone just thinks I am.